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thats what my hubbie calls it.
Ok, the cleanse continues!Day 7.
the initial euphoria has dimmed some what ,perhaps because Im getting used to this heightened awareness. Yes, Im clearer and energetic,with 5 pounds down.
5 pounds?-This is the truly amazing part.
For a year,I have been very very very slowly gaining a little weight, maybe 3 pounds.I have a muffin top for the first time,... And my clothes have been feeling tighter around the rib area.I think to myself,"if I was 5 pounds less,they wouldnt feel tight".
But,I told me,"I'm perfect the way I am, Im older now and need more weight on my body".
My butt looks great when Im a little bigger.BUT! I love my clothes and dont want to get new ones, these took me years to find, they are vintage,funky, fabulously reincarnated, and some are handmade for me. Its not like Im going down to Macys or ann taylor to procure off the rack. No, this has taken years of hunting, bargaining, rummaging, discovering treasures, to collect,so.... ,I wasn't about to consider the possibility that I couldn't wear them!
but,that aside...I mean,after all ,weight loss was a SIDE effect,...remember, I told myself that.
The real reason I did it was to see if I could DO it,to see if I was disciplined enough..Well, yes,I am,, even with a major headache set back at the start of it. Yes, I could, and I can. And that alone feels good, in addition to weight loss, and redirection of energies.
So, today, I felt hungry for the first time, ...not cravings,I dont think, but,hungry.
Sunday night is the last day of my fast.I have a special sacred ceremony planned with other fasting folks of light minded ilk, light workers and healers of the soul.We are amassing at the Lightning in a Bottle festival.
What should I eat? I havent thought about that?

Day 5 of my first fast EVER!
Hard to believe that I have never thought to do this....hhmmmm,did I believe I was not ready or didn't need too?
This is a lesson folks. everyone needs to bE WITHOUT food to understand your relationship with it and how our lives revolve around it.
Why? some might ask? Just shut up and eat!
Because being aware of your habits and your behaviors makes you a better person...did I write better person? yes, I did. To do anything blindly,without thoughts or intention ,is to take it for granted. In any relationship, we must maintain a vigilant awareness of the relationship so as to make it healthier, stronger, more beautiful. Cultivating and creating our foods ,relationships, and our lives. Bringing awareness to each simple act, even taking a bite of food.
Food isn't just about being hungry. No, its much more, as anyone who has a disorder(overeating or starving) will share with you. Food is comfort,stability, security, ...so now, take it away...what do you have? A whole lot of time on your hands, to do a lot more things, like dance, sing, create, sew, surf, fix stuff,...
Yes, Im liking this "no food" fast. I have my lemons,maple syrup, and my cayenne to keep me happy, and amazingly, its doing just that.I feel great! Clear!
So, take my advice, try it.
especially if you are going through a hard time in life right now, something big and stressful.The fast will help you get clarity,...it will...
Not only is it a colon cleanse, its a psyche cleanse too.
love and lemons(or should I write "lovin lemons!"?).

master cleanse day 3

Im not intending to lose weight ,but know it to be a side effect. The real purpose was to see if I COULD do it at all. I wanted to test my discipline that had gotten weaker as of late.Lazy.I like the sloth but dont want to become one.
This cleanse is about cleaning out your mind,body, and psyche, and after only 2 days,(this is day 3) seems to be doing just that.Im not sure if the effect is psychological ,or how it works on us, but it has something to do with our ATTACHMENT to food. Im NOT hungry,amazingly, at all! But, we attach a lot of interaction around food gathering, activity, preparation, emotion, "did you like it" you ask your kids. your hubs feels appreciative that you cooked for him(hopefully)or disappointed if you didnt. ,so there is a lot of FEELINGS associated with it.
I would definitely wean caffeine before trying to go without it. I usually had 1-2 cups a day before.so it wasnt bad except for the almost- migraine headache from hell.
Caffiene is one of the "toxins"(not my word!) that is cleansed from the body. I admit to having a little veg soup broth in the evening when I had the headache with an additional NONO,advil, but I had no recourse.
I feel better than I have for months and wonder why? I got things done yesterday that had been sitting on my list for weeks and today should get more done.The pesky chores that HAVE to be done (applications, jury duty, fundraiser material, getting the lights fixed, fixing the bike, washing the giant rug,etc...).
They say it is easier if you do it with someone and if you dont have to cook for others,which I do.I have lost 3 pounds,that I had slowly gained over the last year. Not a bad thing in this culture.
Try it if you want to enhance your energy and clarity, it works
ENTHUSIASTIC love!

master cleanse-my personal saga

So, here I am,day #2 of this lemonade feast! Yesterday was awful.It started out ok, but ended up with a 19 out of 10 pain on a scale of 10 being the worse. my head began to hurt and slowly built up to a crescendo while driving my kid to the movies.I was incapacitated and couldn't speak. I barely made it home, praying and crying for it to be gone. My hubs insisted that I eat soup broth.I did ,with 2 advil and an ice pack. 30 minutes later,it subsided. Now, in the first place, Im doing this for spiritual advancement and discipline.Weight loss is secondary,Well, thats what Im telling myself anyway. Regardless of the motivation,I have now begun to completely rethink or THINK of my relationship with food,I've known food a long time and have taken it for granted . Never realizing how psychologically attached I was to the stuff. So many aspects of food that I never think about. Well, thats changed!I am now not only thinking about food ,but about how it affects me.
And as far as being an UNHEALTHY thing to do.SMoking, drinking,overeating, and sex with strangers is a hell of a lot worse than lemons,maple syrup, and cayenne.
Im going to try to keep this up for awhile..Day 2 has been interesting.I started the second part of the cleanse,which is the salt water flush.You add 1 teaspoon of salt to a warm glass of water and drink it.Within 10 minutes, you had better make a move to the potty cause you are gonna be pooping!I actually liked the taste of the salt,I pretended like it was chicken soup and it really did taste good.I've lost 3.5 pounds.When I look at myself,I look the same.I asked my friend,Nesa,who had done this cleanse many times before, where was the the weight lost from? She answered"grief". HA!
I felt light headed all day but with amazing bursts of energy. I got a lot of lingering tasks done today that had been festering for weeks. And, things that bother me normally, like nagging thoughts about my kids or my husband seemed to dissipate as quickly as the thoughts arose,...I like that .
I'll keep you updated in case you are considering doing this.It is quite an experiment in getting to know yourself better and I respect everyone who has done it. It feels purifying, empowering, and go figure, CLEANSING!

Sex,I mean,Saks ,therapy...not needed

I was at Saks Fifth Ave the other day with my hubs and daughter who were doing a photo shoot for the upcoming Fathers Day issue of Palm Springs Life Magazine.Brian was modeling, Mikaela was the photographer. I was watching the shoot from the shoe dept... When I began to notice the patrons of the shoe dept and their interactions with the sales folk. I watched as an older ,well dressed woman in her 60's strategized with the sales person. The fact that they both knew each other on a first name basis was my first clue ...The salesman explained to the second saleswoman"Ms Jenkins would like to put 500$ on her card on file and the rest on this personal card". Ms Jenkins apparently hoping to manipulate the cards so that whoever was in charge of paying them didn't see how much she was spending in the shoe dept. that day. They all smiled smugly,all -knowing. I realized that this was her therapy. Her "Saks Therapy".Her smile was clever and complicated, like a gambler who just won a slot machine.
I continued to observe this scene play out again and again, as I sat waiting for the photo shoot to end. These women were getting their 'fix', their 'hit' of momentary "happiness". ..I had to wonder, was I like that ,not so long ago? Before I had my spiritual awakening? Seeking meaning and fulfillment in shopping?
I've come a long way down this beautiful path.......no saks therapy needed.